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Monday, January 05, 2009

yahui doesnt feel happy at all, at her current state of life.

despite the some days of 'having fun', meaningless, meaningful, they're just seems to be fleeting moments.
yahui feels like some drone.
she pitys her own 'inexistence'.
she feels 'insignificant' somedays, as though, she's just useless.
she feels like she's unworthy to ...

she has been bumming ard and now working, but it feels as though it makes not much a difference.

she quite misses where she used to work, with that friend in particular.
she misses her books, yet doesnt feel for them anymore.
she misses going to school, seeing her school mates and studying, having something to do.
she dreads, being grown up, and to work, especially, having the kind of work she is doing now.
she doesnt want to be a typical office lady, though, her 'wanted' uni course, would led her into that. yes, money would have been a great incentive, but she feels quite lifeless. she would love a little of adrenaline rush. she thought of being an air stewardess, seriously, but it seems impossible now, for she does not fit into the profile, just as yet.

prince hal was my favourite character in lit class during secondary school days, and he is still.
great mind thinks alike, but,
funny that you suddenly me abt, at this moment, when you just decided that you are prince hal no more.

where my heart is, i dont quite know what it is thinking of.
many different things.

she dreams of going on cruise, most probably by herself.
the way, she can just stone, and look at the endless ocean and sky.
it beats feeling quite so lonely on the small island of singapore.
but it would be better, always, with good friends.
to have a drink or two, and enjoy the ocean breeze.
the feeling of exclusiveness and exquisite-ness of the cruise.

she then wonders, what happened to leo. lol.

she cant think that much now.
her job is making her quite brainless.
she feels sleepy-